MeeAugraphie

Half Steam Ahead

You reach a point,
75 percent into the climb,
confidence stands

on its own two feet

The peak above,
though still a challenge
is now an option
as baggage has been lost
along the way

load lightened,
along with heart.

OOPS,

one misstep
(or was that mis-thought?)
and you are back
to 50 percent,
but this time
rather than sliding
back to 25 – or worse,
you hold fast at 50,
dig in your heals,
rush inward to regroup.

Why the new resolve?

Perhaps, I offer,

this time

you allowed yourself
to accept your natural rhythm as a gift
rather than failure.

MeeAugraphie
07/26/08

I’ve lingered too long inward, and though it was intended to help me catch up on work, I think on the one hand it slowed me down. I shoved the teeter totter of balance too far, and by ignoring my reading and poetry writing almost completely, I banged my rear on the hard sand, no energy to do what needed to be done. No. Let me rephrase that. I did some of what needed to be done, but only the barest of that which was needed. My energy left me, my enthusiasm hid. I have always been one of ups and downs, peaks and valleys, discipline and not so much, but usually if it HAD to be done, I could force myself, not so much recently.

We have a firm offer on our house; I hope the pressure of ten months stranded on the market coming to a possible end and the help we are getting with some business details unfamiliar to us will lift some of what has obviously stressed me more than I thought. At the same time, the third person poem above, I HOPE is a revelation of my unconscious, because that is where it came from.

And for the record, I am not moping day in and out, I grin a lot, I scheme a lot, and my dreams are still very much attainable! But right now, I need to get to work!

Thank you to those who still checked to see if nothing had become something on these pages. I don’t think I am ready for prompts yet, they will consume me, and I certainly don’t want to shove the teeter totter the other way that far!

Tags: poetry, self-confidence, self-realization